Wondering

I am sitting at my desk, (can't sleep) and am wondering what makes a good person. Is it they live their life for everybody else, is it they live their life for them, is it they live it for their kids, their family, their friends, their house, their credit cards, their cars, their job? I think most people live for all the above its just about the way you prioritize it......and I think that changes from day to day based on who needs you, what you need and where you are at that particular point in your minute, hour, day, month or year. That's how I mostly do things, if my kids need me I am there, my husband, I am there, my friends, my family, my job, my LIFE.....but I have found that I can't be there all the time every time for everybody. Don't get me wrong....I wish I could be and I should be. Lately dealing with my illness (more later), I struggle sometimes to just get out of bed and sometimes that is good enough for me. I am so THANKFUL that I have such great people in my life and I know that more often that not, I probably expect so much and give so little! I just want to be sure that they all know I am thankful! Today in bloggy world is supposed to be wordless but I needed to talk! But I leave you with a picture of a wonderful place that needs no words!

My Husbands Love.......

My wonderful husband restores old Mopar cars. This includes Plymouth, Chrysler and Dodge vehicles. While he dabbles in other cars here in there, these are his passion. The white car below is a 1971 Plymouth Barracuda. One of 91 ever made and it is his baby! I will attempt to post the other cars that have run through our life in later posts, just wanted to share my loves love.

People

Tonight as I sat around with my boy, my man and my BFF and watched the Yotes loose, I realized that even though I don't like people much there are a lot of people I care about and am happy to spend time with. There are very few.....I can count them on both of my hands, but when they are there with you and care about what you care about even as simple as a hockey game, it makes all the difference! The three girls in this post are friends for life, don't get me wrong I have few more too, Aimee, Linda, Penni, but this about those three girls, women, friends above....two were friends before picture was taken, the one on the right is writing this now, but what a fantastic trip. I and they, I am sure enjoyed it so much. We were away from the men, the kids and the constraints that come with day to day life. We loved it and loved who we were with and damn we had fun! Thanks for the memories and the fun! I wouldn't have done it any different! The trip will surely be written about more.

On another note, as I stated in my first post, I am a "lurker" of blogs, I have no less then 75 that I read EVERYDAY! I have been thinking about and have started many blogs...I just wasn't sure it was for me. I have now decided it is.....so give me a break, an atta girl, whatever it is, I am excited and nervous...I am not one to be kind or coddling , and that has kept me from posting before, but I have decided who the fuck cares anyway? YOU? Probably not! It's an outlet and I enjoy writing, while I may not be great or even good at it, i like to express myself in writing. SO....HERE I AM!!!!

trying to understand

So as I have "lurking" on others blogs, I have been starting to understand.......or not...I still have big issues with the fact that I am a working mom, and perhaps do not give my all to my kids....oh wait a minute, I do give my all. I work, I supply, I hunt, I gather and I love. Myself and my wonderful husband bust our ass for our family, we are the all American family. We watch football and hockey. We really don't care for baseball. We are Redskins, Raiders, Rams and Steelers fames. We are two boys and two girls. We love life and I am getting more and more excited about telling our story.....Wondering if I should start and the beginning of my life or the beginning of my new chapter? Excited either way.